If you read my introduction yesterday you already know some of what is going on, but I thought I’d share more in this post.
Like I said, I’ve been trying to lose weight for 2 decades, and I’m 50, so that means since my 30s. But in reality, I’ve been trying to lose weight since I was about 10 or 12 years old.
Various relatives never wanted me to be fat, so they were always ‘on it’ with regards to my weight. Before any big event like a birthday party, Christmas, or Thanksgiving, they’d tell me how I didn’t have to eat a lot of food. And I was a skinny child.
All that their attention on my weight and the food I ate did was to make it so that in my mind hunger = anxiety. I felt anxious about disappointing them by eating any food at all. But eating a lot of food quells the anxiety. I’m sure you can imagine how useful a formula that has been in my life.
Lately, I’ve been able to mind-over-matter it and just decide that being anxious doesn’t mean I have to eat. So that’s good, but I’ve been quite overweight for years now, and it is going to take some time to reverse the damage. I also had uncontrolled depression for the past 2 years, and that makes it really hard to give a two craps about eating well.
Like I said in my intro, I want to have gastric sleeve surgery. My BMI is 38, I have high cholesterol and high blood pressure, and I need to lose a little more than 100 pounds. So I definitely qualify to have the surgery. They only issue is that my insurance won’t cover it.
I’ve seriously considered going to Mexico to have it done, but I’m concerned about the lack of follow-up care. I don’t even know if I could find a surgeon here in the U.S. who would take over my care after surgery in a different country. I’ve heard that that is hard to find.
Any advice for me? I want to have the surgery in the SF Bay Area – know any surgeons who will quote a price? Know any local (to me) surgeons to recommend or avoid? I appreciate the help – thanks!