I’m sitting here Sunday morning trying not to keep compulsively researching gastric sleeve surgery. I don’t meet with my potential surgeon until Tuesday, and that seems like ages away.
I want to know for sure that I qualify for surgery. I want to see the tests I need to take in writing. I want to see the surgery cost in black and white. I want to make sure I don’t have to do a sleep study, because that sounds like a real pain in the ass. I want to pull the trigger on the medical loan I’m pre-qualified for, because that will make it real. I want to meet the surgeon and see if he’s someone who feels trustworthy.
I want to either get started or be rejected for surgery. This limbo state is unsettling.
It feels better to have written it all down. Maybe I’ll be able to enjoy my quiet Sunday morning now. Well, of course after I prepare my folder of notes, questions, and medical background for my upcoming appointment 🙂
What did/do you worry about before getting a surgery date? Did you research the surgery all the time like me? Did you imagine yourself skinny? Or did you put that all out of your mind in case it didn’t work?